This is my 1st post and i am writing on something negative of myself. I don't know why can't I control my emotion..n feeling a little remorseful..

Today, I was upset with my TL while working at shopNsave. It was time for me to go home and he did not bother to close my counter, and think wat!, he still think himself right coz he was of bad mood. We, as part time cashiers, are calculated by hourly pay and it was actually wrong to drag our hours. It was not the 1st time this store did this and no action was done. Then my store manager seems to know and somehow the TL close to counter for me while I was doing 'face out'- arranging the stocks to the front of the rack. He shouted me to come back. My fiery got no where to vent but to swallow down my stomach. I was not a puppet for people to control coz I want freedom. This is seriously not the job for me. The higher authority kept taking advantage of we cashiers. We must come early for work, leave later than scheduled time plus counting money, can take up to 2hrs before we can go home. Its all because close our counter late up to 1hr. I remember got 1 time I overslept and report work around 15 minutes late. That day was my store manager's duty and know what, he close my counter 1hr later the scheduled time. My intuition tells me he did it purposely as he is one with time-concept. I think as a store manager, he should uphold a good example for his TLs or it will be a havoc to the policy of the company. I used to think this position as a cashier does not fit my status coz i think very highly of myself. However, there are more capable people outside. But at least to this store, I thought I was good.
Counting back, I work for this company probably drawing 2 years and I was still in midst of schooling. I thought my store manager looks highly on me and will be glad to let me involved in some administrative job. Perhaps I was always fast but careless and he reject my request twice and let one of my colleagues do it. I was very upset, really. One of my colleagues, who is a store assistant, encouraged me to leave the job for a better one and she boost my confidence. She always tell mi "Aiyah, u diploma holder why yearn for the administrative job?" At least someone thinks better of me and we began gossiping together. LOL - But I think my store manager is aware of it but he choose to keep silent.

Okay, come back to the topic of my foul mood. When i reach home from work, I was very tired coz I only slept for 4hrs the day before. After some chatting with my mum, I took and remind my mum and bro to wake me up around 5pm-6pm. In the end I woke up myself at 7.30pm. I was so furious to have missed part of my show at 7pm. I screamed at my bro, who was using my computer. I also nagged at my mum who had touched my things that was left on the sofa before my nap. I even attempted to beat my baby cousin as I suspect he touched my things, coz he always throw my things away or spoil them. I was really raged at the top of my hat. Then my mum screamed back at me after keeping a moment of silence. We quarreled again. She will use the tactic that i used on her - an eye for an eye. I thought I was a fool to let her know me inside-out. But she is my mum, if i were to think, how far can a mother withstand her child's wildness? She is good already. Whenever I throw my temper, which is a frequent, she will try very hard to stay silent. This is what I don't think I can endure if my child were to do the same to me. Whenever anyone is angry, they cannot think wisely, and I become so hate them. But when I cool down, I somehow will repent and apologize if it was real my fault. For today's matter, I admit it was partly my fault to scream at my mum, bro and baby cousin and sprouting those hurtful words. Pardon me to apologize verbally but to repent my mistake here. Hope they will forgive me..I have confessed my sin and hope to be forgiven.

Sign off,
Wileen

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NYP- D.Accountancy and Finance --- Graduating soon
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